Standing at the Threshold of Heaven...Part 9...Journeys into New Regions

 Everything we live and experience has a message or is a teacher for us.  No experience is negative, it just is, and we need to say," What does that mean for me?"  There is no parts of my life that I feel like I would want to change. That is what makes my life.


We lived a blissful life or hell.  Edwin's personality was so drastically different sober. We had so many dreams and ,of course, children was one of those.  So during the longer sober times we would try to get pregnant. Nothing was happening so we did fertility testing.  I was aware the heavy drinking for long periods could have something to do with it.  As we were in blissful times we planned our lives and moved forward going to AA and Alanon. 

I received a call from a hospital in Skokie, Psychiatric hospital for teens. To my surprise my dear friend and fellow worker had recommended me for their program.  They wanted to hire me part time to do a creative program with the in-patient teens.  I was honored and said yes.  I would work a couple of nights a week after my work at the school. 

I was included in group therapy sessions and did my own workshops using drama.  I must say this was one the most challenging jobs I have ever had.  Working with a group of kids at different levels of sickness and awareness.   I had been trained at Northwestern Illinois University in Creative Dramatic so I knew this was the route to go.  With this technique there would never be a performance it is used for education purposes or pure expression.  It worked most of the time other times I was dead in the water with them.  


A few weeks into my work my supervisor took me into her office.  She told me she had been observing me both in the therapy sessions and in my own group and that it was clear to her she needed to supervise me in a different way.  I thought i was going to be fired or told because I did not have a Masters I had to got back to school, that had been the pattern, in some cases, for me.  Not this is time.


"Alice I have observed your work and I now know I must supervise you from another angle.  When you work you come from an entirely different place than most people. You are intuitive.  It does not come from a mental process.   Are you aware that what you do is from a spiritual level?  You have a gift."  

I was stunned.  This was a M.S.W. in Social Work and Family Therapy, an educated woman with vast experience.  What was going on?  She then gave me the run down on how she would supervise me.  We would start each session with meditation and then she would teach different modes of thought and techniques of Metaphysical Studies.  MARKER !


It was fascinating and a new world was revealed to me.  She knew I did not know where I was coming from and let me know how to control and be aware of what I doing with clients so I could hone in and become better at my work.  I learned a lot about Eastern thought, the Chakra system, meditation; some to calm and focus energy and some to listen to the other side. Marker!   Some of this I already did but really did not know what and why I was doing it.  She gave me tools and awareness of my abilities. And it felt so grand to be supervised by a professional in a spiritual way.

I felt as if I was growing by leaps and bounds. 

During this time Edwin and I visited my parents.  They had a finished room in the attic that we like to stay in while visiting.  We went to bed as usual and in about 2 hours Edwin woke screaming and grabbed me.  What follows is his experience:   

Once  asleep he found himself floating in space and ended up in our Chicago apartment.  It was dark like we left but there was a full moon so there was glow from the moon.  Cats asleep where they usually slept. He looked at the cat and the cat lifted his head and saw him but went back to sleep.  Then he went to look out the window and looked down to see he was not walking but floating.  He went to the window and saw it was our neighborhood, quiet and in the middle of the night.  Then he moved toward the hallway.  All of a sudden he heard a baby cry. There coming down the hall was a hazy figure about two feet tall.  This figure came toward him and fell right at his feet.  It did not see Edwin and got up and kept moving.  Edwin said it seemed to be looking for someone. As the child moved toward the sun porch he noticed the cats both lifted their heads to look at the figure and went back to sleep.  Then Edwin found himself above the bed in my parents house. Next found himself with two  bodies with one trying to get back into the physical body. He was having trouble and felt like the spirit body was an inch outside the physical. He tried to scream but felt he could not. 


It was then I woke hearing an very strange and frighten sound. It was as if Edwin were screaming from a long distance away.  I decided to not wake him.  Then the scream became closer and finally he yelled out and grabbed me.  He then told me the entire story.  He said it was not a dream and that he felt as if he had gone home.  I got up to go to the bathroom and he had to go with me because he was so spooked.  He would not leave my side for two days.  


I went back to work and explained this to my supervisor and she remarked, "He astro projected."  I had never heard of that and neither had Edwin.  She told me it was what some of us do while asleep.  She said that our astro body (had not heard of that either) literally leaves the body and travels the earth or the Universe. What some people think are ghosts could just be someone astro-projecting.  She then told me about several books by Robert Monroe.  This man started to astro project in the 1950's and these books were about his journey from thinking he was crazy to discovering what he was truly doing, leaving at night.  "Far Journeys" is the best one; a suggested read.  He has passed but has an institute; The Monroe Institute that studies astro projection. 


OK, so Edwin astro projected but why?  One month later I found I was pregnant with Stephen after three years of trying.  I was pregnant along side two other woman therapist at the hospital. It was glorious being with them through their pregnancies. What was that about ?  Three of us at the same place of work getting pregnant at the same time.  Mass exodus from the job nine months later.  We all left. I never went back to that job.

When Stephen started to walk he would fall down a lot, he had a foot that turned inward and it made him trip on his own feet.  Did Edwin see our son looking for his mother? We are totally convinced of that.  To this day Stephen is impatient and ahead of himself just like the night his dad saw his little spirit traveling the earth to enter his mom.

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